I've never done well when I've been appreciated. I've done best when I'm targeted for death.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
One of the things I said was that I had been in great hopes that I would become a better person as a result of confronting my own mortality, but it actually never happened. I didn't become a better person.
I was incredibly fatalistic. I just thought, 'If it works, it works.' But I've always been like that. I've never been easily impressed, and I've never thought I didn't deserve something. If I got it, then I deserved it.
It is my nature to strive to do my best. This does tend to take a toll on you.
A lot of the qualities in 'Killing and Dying' is sort of a response to work I'd done previously. I wanted to push myself in some different directions.
I was never at my best when I was at my worst. When I did do good stuff in the past, it was because I was able to transcend the parts of my being that weren't healthy.
I always tried to do the best. I knew I couldn't always be the best, but I tried to be.
That's my goal, to feel like I've done the best I could. When I've done that, anything else that happens is a bonus.
I know that I do deserve good things.
I didn't come from the worst of situations, and I didn't come into the best of situations. But I've appreciated the best situations. And I've made the best of the worst situations. I'm lucky to be where I am.
I've done well for myself.