Words can't describe how one would feel in that moment after doing a test for something you really want but in your heart you don't think you have a chance of getting.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
Sometimes, I think, in order to get to something that we really want or we really love or something that needs to be realized, that we're tested.
We all hit moments when we feel helpless. The test is how we react to that feeling. We can either learn from it and move forward or let it drag us down.
They told me at the end of that test that they wanted me to be a part of this project. I walked out and had a moment of clarity where I thought, not many people will ever have this moment.
At the end, the key thing is you've got to live with yourself. That's the real test. Everything else is fleeting.
If you aren't in the moment, you are either looking forward to uncertainty, or back to pain and regret.
I had to know if I could make it somewhere else. I did not want to go through the rest of my life wondering what might have been without putting myself to the test.
I needed to give back, give back, give back. I felt guilty about my success. I felt uncomfortable about how easily I had been delivered this extraordinary life that I had.
Sometimes you want to run away, sometimes you think you do, but you never had a dream like this before and you don't want to ask for more, sometimes you leave a mark before you know the score.
People's real hopes and dreams can be distorted and misdirected and packaged until you're not sure what you really want or what you even really need.
When you really work hard for something that you genuinely and truly love, and you don't want it to fail, it's a good feeling to see it do good.