My early life was a bit of a mess but it was no one's fault. It was just how it was.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
By my mid-20s, I was a total mess.
I was a pretty delicate kid. Anything that was going around I'd get it and I'd generally get it much worse than other people, so I spent a lot of time out of school.
When I was a kid, everything was so unplanned, my parents were so erratic, and my world was so inconsistent.
I spent a lot of my childhood not fitting in, in a lot of different ways.
There was a lot of brokenness in my family. Let's just say that I was raised by my grandparents.
I had a very rough and tumultuous childhood.
In a funny way, when things went wrong in my life - and it is my fault that they went wrong, it is not anyone else's fault - and all the glittering outside things were taken away, I was left with the things of most value.
I had a very turbulent and painful childhood, like many people. I left for college when I was 16 years old and up until that point I'd lived in five different family configurations. Each one ended or changed through a death or some terrible loss.
I don't remember the first half of my life. All I say is a happy childhood is the worst possible preparation for life.
I hated myself for so many reasons, and I thought so many things were my fault that happened to me growing up.