With the first album, I wanted to do so many different things, and I was fighting with myself to try and see if I was worthy enough to do it.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I didn't know how well my first album had done; it was enough to get me to do the second album, which was a continuation of the music I'd worked on and perfected.
My first album was full of ideas and attempts to go in all kinds of directions. I was young. I loved making music, but I didn't have a clear path. I also lacked in confidence.
I wanted to make the album I always needed to make. I had to say the things I never could.
I think I've grown a lot in the last few years, and I needed to express myself as an artist on this. It wasn't necessarily about going in and making an album chocked full of hit singles... there were a lot of things I did out of the joy and the want to do it.
At some point in my life, before I was gone, I wanted to make an album, even if it was for no reason other than posterity.
What I was going for in the first two albums I didn't necessarily achieve. Because I was young and because it was my first time out. And the second album was such a 'quickie' sort of 'Let's just get it over with!' But the kind of music I make, there's a lot of subtlety in it. And I think it takes a couple of listens to actually really get it.
The first album was a very successful record. It made me very visible and it's an immediate association, but I don't do that anymore. Now I'm true to myself as an artist again. I'm more vocally oriented.
I began the process of recording myself seriously in the fall of 1999. If I could finish an album of my own music, I would. Five years later I am happy to say I have.
I wanted to make an album that was hopeful and encouraging and inspiring. That was the goal.
My first album was me finding myself and my voice, finding how I sing. I was rolling with the punches because everything was new to me.