I wanted to be with the kind of people I'd grown up with, but you can't go back to them and be one of them again, no matter how hard you try.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
I knew there were a lot of friends out there, and I wanted to be with them.
Like so many kids, I just wanted to fit in, and I see now that I spent most of my life trying to be what I wasn't, trying to get people to like me.
As a teenager, I didn't want to be me; I wanted to be many different people. Maybe I realized that they all lived inside me and that if I managed to connect with them, they would become aspects of me.
Growing up, I just wanted to be like everyone else. I didn't value or understand the beauty in being different at the time in my life.
If you could go back and change things, you might not be the person you are right now.
There were a couple of years where I got a bit lost - I went out too much, I was a bit heartbroken, thought I was a bit more of a dude than I really was. I would love to go back and have a strong word with myself.
Growing up in high school, I wasn't hanging out with friends every day or on the weekends. Doing normal high school kid things was something I was willing to give up.
I was an escapee of childhood. I always wanted to grow up.
I was with somebody else at the time, who I left - one, because I didn't really want to be with that person, and two, because I felt I'd had so much tragedy I needed to go off, go crazy, and maybe live on the outside for a while.
When I was growing up, I always wanted to be somebody else and live somewhere else. I've always felt a little uncomfortable around people.