The minute I saw the front page of the 'Daily Telegraph' - me with my arm around the latest 'X-Factor' contestant - I realised I'd gone into a new realm.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
This whole 'X Factor' thing with people assuming I'm going to be a one-hit wonder - that won't happen with me.
I didn't know what I was in for when I joined 'The X Factor' - I underestimated it.
I wanted to step forward and be on TV and for people to see who I really was.
I love finding new talent, to be completely honest, and my opportunity that I got to do 'X Factor U.K.' was just incredible. I will never forget it.
It's funny because the perception is that the typical 'X Factor' contestant is the person who's just working 9 to 5 and just decides to one day go and audition. So yeah, for me, it was a very different story.
After the 'X Factor,' there were opportunities everywhere. It was all there waiting for me to enjoy. I didn't understand business.
I lost myself in the process and I realized how much I had identified myself with Maria Shriver, newswoman. When that was gone, I had to really sit back and go, 'Well, actually, who am I today?'
I wish I hadn't lost it, and for the rest of my life I can never again lose my temper on TV. The BBC could have sacked me and that would have been the end of my career on TV.
I get tweets every single day going, like, 'I'm so glad you weren't on 'The X Factor.'
Before going on 'X Factor' again, I felt like I'd tried everything else.