I always wanted to know what I'd face next, even though that was maybe a bit detrimental to spontaneity. Structuring my life and avoiding chaos was more important.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I had a lot of chaos in my very early years before I was old enough to know what was going on, and then I just skated through the rest of my childhood without dealing with it.
Maybe in my life I sort of put myself in situations that were chaotic, outside of my life.
I was always trying to find the balance between trying my best and being an incredible parent. I literally realized that it was chaos - but it was happy chaos.
I call my life a beautiful mess and organised chaos. It's just always been like that. My entire life things have been attracted to me and vice versa that turn into chaotic nightmares or I create the chaos myself.
The assumption is that your personal life has to be a mess to create, but how much chaos can you allow in before it takes over?
There was a time when my whole life was in chaos, really, and I didn't help myself sort it out. But one day I came to my senses, and I think I was lucky because a lot of people don't.
I used to worry that if I wasn't having a dynamic life, then I wouldn't have anything to talk about.
I used to find that I could get mental serenity surrounded by chaos.
I've always enjoyed things a little more chaotic than most people would prefer. I feel that I run well in chaos.
The way that I live my life is on spontaneity.