I knew people were going to see me see deteriorate before their eyes.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
In 1985, I saw a tape of myself where my eyes were puffy. I looked very tired and bedraggled and not as youthful as I would like to have been.
Something new always slowly changes right in front of your eyes - it just happens.
All my life, I've felt people are looking at me. So, when I became known, it was like, 'I'm not imagining this any more. People genuinely are staring at me. Oh, Christ, now they're coming over!'
It is often said that before you die your life passes before your eyes. It is in fact true. It's called living.
It's true about the eyes being the window to the soul. Your face can be etched with worry, and twisted by ageing, but the eyes tell the true story of who you are.
I was walking around legally blind. Now I have 20-20 vision. I can't believe I spent so many years blurry, but I think that coincides with how I was feeling. Now I notice if people are watching me, but I also smile right back if someone waves, which helps.
When I got out of the hospital, it was one of those classic things - you're looking death in the eye, and it changes you. I thought, I ought to go back on the road.
From now until the end of time no one else will ever see life with my eyes, and I mean to make the best of my chance.
I have photographs taken of me at the time I was addicted, and thought I looked good. I see them today and realize my eyes were dead.
You realize you're alive while you're alive, and you better notice it then, because later, it's hard to see.