Right now I am trying to be in a place of calm, a place where I can chill out and then handle the chaos of life better. You don't just get it overnight; you have to work at it. It's a daily struggle.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I feel I've lived so long, and went through so much, that all I want is calm and rest.
It's hard to understand the life that I live and rationalize some of the things that I do. I don't need someone questioning every move that I make, asking me why I don't just relax. When there's no one asking me those types of questions... to me, it's peaceful.
There may be a long list of things to do, but really, there is just one thing on the list at any time. If you think of it like that, the whole world looks different and you can stay quite calm. Maybe everything will get done eventually and maybe not. You can always have hope.
I don't think I'm yet peaceful because I have to struggle every day within myself when I see the suffering of the people of the world, the women and the children. And fury sets in. But I have to transform that and take it out and do something positive with it - but I have to do that sometimes minute to minute.
I'm content with life, and I'm finally at that place where I feel relaxed and can really enjoy what's going on around me.
The biggest challenge for me is just knowing how to calm down.
I'm a calm person who wants to talk about things and think things through.
Everything is so chaotic. My nervous system can't handle it. I need my peace, so, every once in a while, while the kids are at school, I lie in bed, close the curtains, watch television and eat food.
I'm really trying to be in the now - that's so spiritual and stuff. It's just so much more pleasant and sane.
The greatest thing about where my life is right now is it's very relaxed and chill. I'm just hanging out, being myself and doing my work.