Although I've watched myself making the transition from being a girl to being a woman, I still feel 15 years old. My reflection disagrees.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I couldn't wait to be an adult woman, and I'm glad I felt that way as a kid because, when I grew up, I realised I live in a world where the female form is really disrespected, and society is often trying to wrestle the female form into a shape that looks more like a young boy.
Fifteen is such a weird age to be. Nobody treats you like an adult, but you desperately want to be one. You still have these childlike aspects, but you're just kind of coming into the world.
It took me a long time to realise that I was a girl as a teenager. At that point I never really believed it. I looked like a boy for a long time. Now, finally, I feel like a woman.
Age brings a freedom. When you're young, you're much more subject to the idea of what feminine is or how you should look or how you should behave.
I am 30, but there are things about me that are still 15.
I'm learning to accept everything that I am. I've accepted that I'm not going to be a stick-thin-model kind of girl. When I was 14, I was tall and spindly. By the time I turned 18, I had become a woman, and my body's not going to go back to what it looked like when I was 14.
Sometimes, I feel like I spent the first part of my life wishing to be a teen-age boy, and the second part condemned to being one.
Girls are losing their virginity at 15, 16. I'm not promoting that. But my songs are talking... about me becoming a man.
Age is a chronological number. That's all. There is plenty of time for my life afterwards. I'm still a young woman.
I never got to make that transition from little girl to young woman... and that really screws you up.