Right through to the end of the last World Cup game, I still couldn't bear the thought of not being perfect or letting people down.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
The problem with me is I always think I should've done better. I felt that after the World Cup final and through my whole career.
Winning the World Cup was a dream come true after so many years of wanting something so bad. After that final whistle, I dropped to the ground on my knees and got emotional.
There are pitfalls in World Cups, there are players who can win penalties and players who get the slightest touch and go down holding their face or whatever and get someone sent off. There are all these little things and you're hoping that you're not on the wrong end of it.
To say I have played through four World Cups, two Lions tours, 91 international games and a ridiculous number of injuries and other setbacks gives me an incredibly special feeling of fulfilment. I know myself well enough to know that I will never truly be satisfied.
If you have any setback in your life, like not being in the England squad was for me - any setback, like losing a family member - everyone handles it in different ways. When I first wasn't included I was numb. I'd been the main England striker for years and years. It was really disappointing.
There's really no way to be perfect. Perfectionism is a silly trait to have, so in a lot of ways that inspired the world of 'Divergent,' in which everyone is striving toward that ideal and falling short of it.
I wasn't as fit as I would of liked to have been, going to the World Cup, but I'm not sure what difference that made.
That makes me think of the 2002 World Cup Final above all else. Nobody thought at the time that our team would get through to the Final against Brazil. We should remember that this summer.
It's been hard, but I've finally come to the realization that it's okay to not be perfect.
I haven't won a World Cup. There's things that haven't been finished, and I'm not afraid to fall flat on my face trying.