I had a lot of chances to do things that other people don't ever get, and I have to be content with that. I have to look around for some other way to make myself useful.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
It's important to ask yourself, How am I useful to others? What do people want from me? That may very well reveal what you are here for.
My problem is how to find the best way of being useful.
I am a maker of useful things.
Nearly all the things I do that are of any merit at all start off just being good fun, and I think I'm sort of building up to doing something else quite soon.
I discovered that the best thing for me was to be very busy all the time. I can get a lot done, and I can do those tasks well.
You know how you get close to something you want and then you start doing things to ensure that you don't quite get it? I did a lot of that.
People ask me what I do in my spare time, and I look at them blankly, truly believing that I don't even have spare time, and if I did, I'd probably use it for something mundane, like chipping away at the mound of laundry rising to dangerous proportions in the back room.
The idea of taking what's useful and discarding the rest is something I say to myself almost on a daily basis.
I mean, I tend to do my own thing, and that usually crosses purposes with everyone around me.
What is my life if I am no longer useful to others.