Everyone saw me on TV or read articles, and it was all about my great marriage, the white picket fence, all this success and my perfect life. But behind the scenes, it was a struggle.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
I made an awful mess of my first marriage. It was hard to live with me being me. I was so abnormal. I mean, most writers struggle. I hadn't struggled. I couldn't suddenly go down to the PEN Club and behave like a normal human being, because most of those guys were struggling to make a couple of thousand pounds a year.
I was just so lucky to have a wonderful life after a tough marriage.
It took me a long time to be convinced that marriage was right for me because I've come from a long line of broken marriages. My parents divorced, and I had two broken marriages myself.
Getting married and then having children just centered me and grounded my values. It was like a whole new world. It started happening in New York with a little play called Cruise Control, where I relaxed, and then I kept getting work in Hollywood till this series happened.
I was too ashamed and afraid to confide in friends, and wanted to convince others and myself that my marriage was a success. I lost myself in my writing. Finding ways for my characters to overcome their problems and make their relationships work helped plaster over the wound caused by my inability to make things right at home.
I've often thought if I didn't make my marriage work, I would have failed at my one true shot at happiness.
I got a divorce, and I felt like I finally started my career. I started making movies and projects that I just really believed in.
I ran to my marriage, I was happily ready to take on marriage.
I got married, other people went off. We had sort of another public-we were our entire readership for many years, and we were very excited by each other.
And my marriage was perfect when I wasn't famous.