My reasons for declaring a sexual preference had to do less with the pursuit of personal freedom than with the lust for pure shock value.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
In many ways, my attachment to human freedom was completely compatible with my right to live freely as a homosexual.
Proclaiming a sexual preference is something that straight men never really have to bother with.
I think it is the height of ignorance to believe that the sexual act is an independent function necessary like sleeping or eating. Seeing, therefore, that I did not desire more children, I began to strive after self-control. There was endless difficulty in the task.
Freedom is not procured by a full enjoyment of what is desired, but by controlling the desire.
If I practised sex, out of moral conviction, that was one thing; but to enjoy it... seemed a defeat.
I'd thought sexuality was instinctive or natural, but it's profoundly linked to inner security and cultural context.
I chose to treat the homosexuality like I would treat any other form of sexuality.
No, my work does not reflect my sexual preferences, it reflects the fact that I feel total freedom as an artist.
I justified it in so many ways. I had a very, very long and difficult struggle with my sexuality.
I've always been comfortable with my sexual desires and what I like.