When I watch myself on camera, in any capacity - being interviewed, performing, 20 years ago or yesterday - there's a part of me that really doesn't grasp that it's me.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I'm used to being in front of camera and knowing what to think. But if you're asking me to be me, I get very self-conscious. My job isn't to be me. Being an actor, people think you can do a eulogy at a funeral, a speech at a wedding. I find all that very nerve-racking.
I've always viewed myself as a behind-the-scenes person rather than in front of the camera.
When I am in front of the camera or on stage, I am not me.
With my YouTube videos, I used to edit a lot of my own videos, so I've gotten used to seeing myself on camera.
I guess people wonder if I'm the same on camera as I am off, and I'm pretty much the same, I really am. But that's always asked of me.
I often don't see what I've done, or I cringe when I watch myself.
At least when you're acting you can be someone. In front of the camera you have to be yourself. And who am I?
If I do my very best, then the camera and the audience will follow me, and eventually they will somehow feel like I feel. I don't have to show it to them. I don't have to speak it out loud.
I feel more in touch with the world when I'm filming.
Some people, they feel like they have to change and try to go out and do this or do things for the cameras. I'm myself at all times, whether I'm at a grocery store or I'm speaking to a school. I want to be as levelheaded and down to earth as possible, because that's who I am.