Certainly I had a really terrible time with 'Emotionally Weird.' When I finished it, I thought, 'I can't write any more.'
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I tend to write it and then let go emotionally.
I realized going back and writing and explaining in details the difficulties I had lived actually became emotional again. It's like therapy but sometimes therapy can be painful. But it's part of life and part of the autobiography so I'll have to finish it sooner or later.
Maybe I spent more time dwelling on emotions than some people, and maybe that's why I ended up writing.
I'm an incredibly emotional person, but I always feel bad about that. The work is therapy... I need to emote wildly while I write. I weep. I'll laugh, get excited, and get up and pace. I try to take the emotional journey with the characters.
I think, with most writers, their neurosis is finishing things. I have a different neurosis. I'm terribly anxious when it's not finished. Then I become really difficult to live with.
Writing is such a weird emotional thing. It's hard. If you sit down with a plan to write something, it's going to be harder.
I was uncomfortable writing fiction. My love was the personal essay, rather than the novel.
The whole excitement for writing anything is quite intense. And for a day or two, you think you've done everything extremely well. The problems start on the third day, and continues for the rest of your life.
I realised that I had always been writing things that other people wanted me to write and not what I really wanted to write, so I felt like I was losing my way.
I just sort of write the book I feel like writing given the emotional place I am in my life at the time.