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It smote me to the heart that I had found no one in all the world who loved me more than all others.

I feel like when I was an adolescent, and felt so unworthy of love and so empty, I moved outside of myself.

I thought I wasn't attractive or talented anymore. I cried easily and was depressed and removed. I became emotionally insecure about what the second half of my life would bring. I was angry, scared, frightened and lonely.

My life had no meaning at all. I found only brief interludes of satisfaction. It was like my whole life had been about my whole basketball career.

In 2000, I fell in love. I had never felt anything like that before in my life. It kind of took me over.

I went through my whole life wanting to feel I belonged. I was very, very lonely, so I would marry people that I wasn't really in love with, and who weren't right for me, because I hoped they would be.

People ask about love. Real love. I was never in love; the people around me didn't love me. They were just along for the ride.

I was married to someone who wanted me to change. Become more adult, more responsible. I began not to like myself, not like what I do. I lost my identity. Everything began collapsing around me.

You have people come into your life shockingly and surprisingly. You have losses that you never thought you'd experience. You have rejection and you have learn how to deal with that and how to get up the next day and go on with it.