Scribbling things down is my therapy. I filter later.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
When I sit down with my notebook, when I start scribbling words across the page, I find out what I'm feeling.
My only way of processing anything for me is by writing.
I have a notebook with me all the time, and I begin scribbling a few words. When things are going well, the walk does not get anywhere; I finally just stop and write.
I kind of go in waves with reading. Sometimes I read all the time, and sometimes I can't get settled enough to focus.
I'm reading more than ever. I used to find it tedious, but now it's like my little friend - it takes my mind off things.
I was always a writer, by which I mean I was always scribbling away, doing something with pen and paper.
I see my writing as the process of looking at the usual, but from two steps to the side.
I think 90% of my ideas evaporate because I have a terrible memory and because I seem to be committed to not scribble anything down. As soon as I write it down, my mind rejects it.
I tend to forget what I'm doing will ever be read while I'm writing it, and just get on with the task at hand.
I don't do my best work while I'm in therapy. I'm too onto myself immediately seeing meanings in things and more likely to censor myself. I'd rather find images I don't understand. That's what generates the work.