For the first time I feel an inner emotional security. There is reality and dependability. My life revolves around Richard and the baby.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
Since being quite young, I've had a very strong sense of independence and survival. As a child, I was on my own two feet emotionally.
I find the reality of our emotional lives interesting.
Having my son, I mean, I feel already that it makes me a better actress. Just the feeling and the love that expands in my being is more than I ever thought possible.
My psycho-analytic work has convinced me that when in the baby's mind the conflicts between love and hate arise, and the fears of losing the loved one become active, a very important step is made in development.
There's love for your parents, your family, your spouse, your partner, your friends, but the nature of the connection you have with your child, there's nothing like it. It has its own character and it's so serious and so powerful, and so it's a prism through which I see everything.
Everything with me is pretty close to the surface, but having kids has completely ruined my emotional equilibrium.
Once you have a child, that becomes your life, and while that's the way it should be, I sort of have a love affair with my work. Having said that, many of us work far too hard and we don't put enough value in the epicurean, sensual part of life.
The moment you have a child, in an instant your life is not for you, and your life is completely, 100 percent dedicated to another human being, and they will always come first. It changes you forever. It changes your perspective, and it gives you a nice purpose and focus.
I think that for me, personally, a lot of my choices have been to do with my own issues of not feeling safe as a child and feeling a sense of stability.
The needs of babies and toddlers were constant and drained the life out my sense of self and my family's relationship with each other.