There were moments when I really just thought, I don't need anything and I don't need anyone. I just want to go away and disappear.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
Believe me, there's nothing I would like to do more than disappear for a while.
It's really wonderful to be able to be nobody, and then have a moment when I can be somebody, and then go right back to being nobody again.
I don't worry when I go away for a while. I think there is a place for me. It may not be at the top of the heap. But that doesn't bother me, either. I think I will always be able to get work - which is the only thing I have ever really been interested in.
What I have learned over the years is to try to stay in the moment. I want to feel it all because I've realized nothing lasts.
You have to find the place where you abandon everything of yourself. Then you can let something else happen.
There are still things I want to do but they're not necessary for me to do. I'm not clinging to anything that I can't open my hands and let go.
I'm being all of me, and it feels stupendous. I don't want to leave this feeling.
I feel like when I was an adolescent, and felt so unworthy of love and so empty, I moved outside of myself.
I want to be alone and work until the day my heads hits the drawing table and I'm dead. Kaput. I feel very much like I want to be with my brother and sister again. They're nowhere. I know they're nowhere and they don't exist, but if nowhere means that's where they are, that's where I want to be.
You don't have to be alone with your thoughts anymore. You don't have to process anything. You can call up someone to do something to instantly make you sort of feel better.