I see it all perfectly; there are two possible situations - one can either do this or that. My honest opinion and my friendly advice is this: do it or do not do it - you will regret both.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
If you really want to do it, you do it. There are no excuses.
No, really. Just do it. You have some kind of weird reasons that are okay.
If you have always done it that way, it is probably wrong.
Do something because you really want to do it. If you're doing it just for the goal and don't enjoy the path, then I think you're cheating yourself.
If you want to do something, just do it. No one is going to do it for you.
If it's what you do and you can do it, then you do it.
If you want to do something, go for it -you've got nothing to lose.
Sex is a part of love. You shouldn't go around doing it unless you are in love.
I was brought up by two people who just said, Whatever it is you're interested in, go do it. There is no winning or losing. You find out when you do it what the experience is.
That's what you have to learn with life. It's your life at the end of the day. There's really no right or wrong way to do things. Everybody has a way they think you should do it. So why not do it your way, you know what I mean, respectfully.