It's hard to wind down, but then I beat myself up because I have a tense back.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I practice staying calm all the time, beginning with situations that aren't tense.
I'm always pretty tense about everything when it comes to work.
I've made mistakes, usually when I felt backed against a wall or faced enormous pressure. I'm human and flawed.
I have to write because if I don't get something down then after a while I feel it's going to bang the side of my head off.
I come from a violent background. So I became hard. I realised that I had made myself that way to deal with a feeling of abandonment and shame.
Every time I wake up, I see myself like somebody beat me up.
I used to not back down from a challenge.
If you think negatively, it's hard to get out of tense moments.
I don't like to hold back, because that's how you hurt yourself.
I've always had that knack for staying pretty even keel and the more the situation gets tense the more I see things clearly and I think that's just a knack that I've always had.