I chose English-speaking and English-thinking people to take decisions for Hindi programmes. It was a mistake.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
If I have to do something, I feel I should do it perfectly, and ofcourse, Hindi language is a problem.
I have stayed in south India all my life. English comes more naturally to me than Hindi.
Hindi is far easier a language to pick up than Tamil.
When I moved to Bombay, it was very harsh. I was nothing like what I am today. I couldn't speak a word of English. In England, people might be very understanding about that, but in Bombay, they're not very forgiving. 'If you don't speak English, how do you expect to work in Hindi films?'
I remember breaking the news to both my parents that I wanted to be a director, and they both looked very doubtful. They didn't know what a closet Hindi film buff I was. I used to dance to old Hindi films songs on the sly, so my decision to be a part of Hindi cinema was shocking even for my parents.
My Hindi is OK. I think I am better with Tamil. I remember the Tamil words.
Hindi is my mother tongue. Even though I do not get to use it as often, it's still a part of me.
I had the feeling I was going to be successful, and I didn't want to be another disappointing Indian.
I had to struggle with the language. I can understand Hindi now, but I still can't communicate. And things get lost in translation; I feel rejected all the time.
My mum made a conscious decision not to teach me any Indian languages so I wouldn't talk with an accent.