There was a period when I had a hard time reconciling all the different parts of me in a way that I thought would make sense to others.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I was raised to sense what someone wanted me to be and be that kind of person. It took me a long time not to judge myself through someone else's eyes.
I always knew that there was something that made me different, and by the time I was in high school, I understood what it was.
I could be pretty volatile, especially when I didn't feel understood, which was 99 percent of the time. I do think that, as a young person, I suffered over that. But as I look back, it doesn't even feel like part of me - except when I act and need those emotions. Then I can dredge it up.
People have a problem with me being different, but that propels me forward in life.
Throughout my life, I have grappled with my own identity, who I am. As a young child, I often felt ambivalent about myself, in fact, confused.
I just always considered myself to be different and able to explore whatever I wanted.
I came from a different mind-set growing up, and my mind has changed.
A lot of my personality was informed by feeling very different in the world I grew up in, feeling that I didn't fully belong, that my parents didn't belong.
Growing up, I just wanted to be like everyone else. I didn't value or understand the beauty in being different at the time in my life.
Sometimes I feel like I have a dozen different people inside of me. I've always been that way, and I've always written stuff down.