After I turned producer, people asked me, 'Why are you taking up production? You are still so young and doing well.' Just because an actress decides to make movies, do people assume that her career is not going well?
Sentiment: POSITIVE
On a very small scale, I kind of understand why the directors that I work with do certain things. I don't consider myself an incredible director. I'm not ready to do movies by any means. But, I feel like I can be a better actress now that I've been on the other side and kind of understand the process and more of the technical aspects of it.
You have to be talentedly insecure in order to be a good actress. And then it's the director's job to make you more miserable and get a good take.
I have a theory that self-made, first-generation actresses don't feel entitled to success.
As far as developing a career as an actress, I think it's a fine balance between trying to just work, and also be true to yourself.
I think being an actress is more how to cope with the fact that you can't do anything else than to express a talent. It's a way of being untalented for anything.
Most people want to become movie stars and I just want to be in the business. I already was a star. If I get the part of a lifetime and it blows up, then that's wonderful. But if the acting doesn't work, fine. I'll just be a producer. And if the producing doesn't work, fine. I've got a lot of other stuff.
My job as an actress is to make things work and come up with reasons of my own and not just fill in the blanks for anybody else, you know what I mean?
If you look at the movies that come out, most of them are bad, so it's not as if achieving some level of success means you get offered better roles, because frankly they don't seem to exist.
For some time, I thought being a producer would be a more fulfilling career than being an actor. But then I went to a conference in Cannes with 300 other producers, all desperately chasing finance for their projects... and realized being an actor wasn't so bad after all!
Getting movies developed doesn't do me any good as a producer. It only does me good to get movies made.