There was a time when I felt I should do everything that was offered to me, you know, ride the wave.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
'Beyond Glory' is responsible for this wave that I've been fortunate enough to ride for the last few years. And that I did primarily because I didn't know what else to do. You might say I did it out of desperation.
When I was 18 I was just absorbing everything around me: whatever happens, happens. I was so naive and willing to ride whatever wave life threw at me.
So, I decided that whatever I was, wanted to do with my life, it would have to do, it would have to have something to do with the exploration and doing new things.
I needed to give back, give back, give back. I felt guilty about my success. I felt uncomfortable about how easily I had been delivered this extraordinary life that I had.
I felt that I had worked hard my entire life and deserved to enjoy all the temptations around me. I felt I was entitled, and thanks to money and fame, I didn't have to go far to find them.
You know what else I've learnt? That it's all right not to ride the crest of the wave. Every time a wave comes along I retreat, and I haven't come to any harm yet.
I knew that I was going to have a life as a musician, because I always felt the pull. I don't remember ever having to make a choice.
Swimming took up so much of my faculties, and for so long, I was willing to give it everything.
I did what I felt, and I felt what I did, at all costs.
From the beginning, I wanted to live my own life, and patiently I shored up that desire against wind and tide.