I made the decision a long time ago that I had an obligation to my children that I happily fulfilled.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
Every single decision I make about what material I do, what I'm putting out in the world, is because of my children.
Throughout my life, I happily deferred to family, companions, children.
I didn't want children until my late thirties because my career was taking off, and I was having such a good time in New Order. But when you have children, you have to make decisions; I always wanted to stay at home with my kids.
When it comes down to it, I believe that, having made the decision to bring children into the world, I owe it to them to be as present as I can in their daily lives and to try my best to stay alive until they've made it through to adulthood.
I did what I felt that I wanted to do. Fairly selfishly. I didn't know my kids as well as I should have.
I had a husband who stayed with me, and small children, and I had no choice but to pull myself together and rebuild a different kind of life. There was no other choice.
I could have had someone else take care of my child but I did it because that was my moral obligation and also it was a joy and I felt it was in the best interests of the child.
I have two children. I gave up a lot for my career, but I'm very happy for it. I've done what I've always thought was best for me and my family.
I was an unhappy child, and that puts me off having a child of my own.
Yet I wanted to have children, and I knew that was my purpose, but I wasn't going to settle.