It probably says something really clinically terrible about my character that I need to get up on a stage and go 'Ra ra ra' in front of people.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I've had a couple of people come up to me after screenings and say they kind of sympathized with the character. I always get a kick out of it when people say that. It means I did something maybe a little bit to the credit of the character.
I had a constant fear, a constant little doubt in my mind: 'OK, I'm getting ready to do my standing back full on beam and I might re-tear my ACL.'
There have been so many things written about me that are untrue and horrifying.
In particular, people have trouble understanding where I stand in relation to my characters, and very often this gets reduced to me making vicious fun of them.
They said my voice was terrible, nervous, and spotty and that I must go away and learn how to use it properly. I must admit I was rather agape, since I had never thought about making my voice better.
The voice collects and translates your bad physical health, your emotional worries, your personal troubles.
You can't be a proper comic unless you've been out on stage and felt the fear.
When I take a black-and-white portrait, it's not particularly meant to please you. It's meant to talk to you; it's meant to shame you. It's meant to scream out at you, and it has a message.
Me being a shy kid, very closed off, showing vulnerability in a character was sort of a safe space on stage. It's always been in my toolbox, there for me when I need it.
I've been getting in trouble my whole life and I really don't care what anybody thinks of what I do on stage as a comic.