I'd kill myself if I was as fat as Marilyn Monroe.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
Who would have thought that the girl who was forced to go to the hospital because she's so skinny would one day be called too fat?
At my heaviest, I was 5'8" and 175 pounds. I ate well, but in too large quantities, and I rarely made a concerted effort to burn off the extra calories. I'd beat myself up about being overweight, even though I had the tools to be in shape. Then I'd resort to an unhealthy diet to lose the weight that was making me self-conscious.
I figured being fat was my destiny.
The funny thing is, I don't actually think of myself as fat at all. I don't think I am. Not really.
I never had a desire to be famous... I was fat. I didn't know any fat famous actresses... You know, once a fat kid, always a fat kid. Because you always think that you just look a little bit wrong or a little bit different from everyone else. And I still sort of have that.
I thought I'd become an actress, but then I realized I eat too much.
I was told I was fat in the modeling world, and a director on a shoot told me I needed to lose weight. The J-Lo booty wasn't popular then, and I wanted to be the perfect Hollywood girl - tall, blonde and skinny. I couldn't do the 'tall' because I was 5'2, and I couldn't do the skinny, either.
I want to be the new Marilyn Monroe.
First off, I don't do self-deprecation comedy based on being fat. I would always talk about it honestly. Secondly, I don't care how much I weigh.
I would have loved to have met Marilyn Monroe and have dinner with her.