In my 10 years that I spent out in TV and film, I had my shares of frustrations and annoyances and disappointments, but also I think it was, in the long run, it was very good for me in a whole bunch of ways.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
TV has been very good to me, and I hope I've been good to it, but I also love film.
It used to hurt when people ran down my films. I used to feel inferior. I wouldn't go to parties or award functions because my cinema is not considered good enough. But now I keep my head high, and I am proud of what I am doing.
I use the film industry as a pleasure for work and that kind of thing and it's not a pursuit to make me feel happy in my life.
We all go to the theater and cinema to be inspired and moved on an emotional level, sometimes to laughter, sometimes to tears. Once I discovered that acting could have such an effect, I was sold. It has been one of the most rewarding discoveries I have ever made.
I think it sits quite happily with me, the condition of being an actor. I see some people getting quite eaten up with it, with the insecurities. There are times when I long for continuity and stability, but I also love the idea of not knowing what I'll be doing next - or even if I'm going to work.
I feel like I had to learn how to take care of myself and find out what made me happy aside from just making films.
I think one reason TV has always done well is because there is something comforting where you kind of know what you're going to be taken through.
I think people think filmmaking is fun, but I've never thought that. For me it's always been a lot of work and pain and stress.
I'm really happy with where I am, the movies in my life. Not satisfied, necessarily. But I won't put it on somebody else, blame anybody else for my position in the business. It's the choices I have made.
I don't watch my own films very often. I become so jittery and ready to cry... and miserable. I think it's awful.