I don't want to come off like the jealous brother who wasn't getting the attention, but it was like no one was really into me anyway. I wasn't really a priority.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I never wanted to come off as self-important.
That's the way I got along in life. I don't ever remember being particularly jealous of anybody, because I figured if I can't do it myself, I don't deserve to get it.
I cared too much about people liking me because I didn't like myself enough.
I was in relationship with a guy who was much older than me - either he was past his prime and I was coming into mine. There was nothing I could do to keep his attention.
While I very much wanted to be in a relationship, I didn't want to be in the wrong one.
I felt so alone as a boy because no one wanted to be friends with me.
I wanted to be left alone to live my life, so it was very easy for people to pretend that they were me.
I feel fortunate that I was able to step away from it when I wasn't interested.
I got off on the fact that a guy would be so into me from the get-go without really knowing me. That's probably why I had so many bad relationships.
Now I worry. If people ended up liking me, did I do the job wrong? So I decided they didn't end up liking me - they ended up being able to deal with me.