I made a commitment to myself; that I wanted to be an actress, and I wanted to do films that make a difference. It has to move people.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
I have an immense amount of respect for acting. I've always loved movies and was always fascinated by movie-making. But to become an actor, I wanted to commit myself.
I didn't start out thinking that I could ever make films. I started out being a film lover, loving films, and wanting to have a job that put me close to them and close to filmmakers and close to film sets.
Making films has never just been a job to me; it is my life. I have some interests outside of acting - I sing and I've written books, for instance - but acting is what keeps me going: it's what I do; it gives life purpose.
I don't want to limit myself. I want to keep doing all sorts of roles. I guess what lies behind this urge is the conviction that movies have changed my life. And certain performances have inspired me to try to be someone different.
I went to film school at Columbia and did that for a couple years and really thought I was going to be a filmmaker, and then I kind of drifted over to the acting side after that. I'd been an actor in high school, and when I got to college, it was all about film.
I was very insecure approaching the idea of directing a feature film. I told myself I would not move until I felt I was moving in power rather than moving in desperation to make a movie.
Directing a film was something I always wanted to do, something that seemed an inevitability in my development as an actor.
I came to filmmaking because it's my passion. I decided I can't have it distorted or marred by someone else deciding what it should be.
I had no interest in really becoming an actress or doing that kind of thing... I just knew that I wanted to do something in making films.
When I initially started acting, all I wanted to do was to be in one movie. That's it. That was my goal.