I was very insecure approaching the idea of directing a feature film. I told myself I would not move until I felt I was moving in power rather than moving in desperation to make a movie.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
When I made my first film, I didn't think of it as directing, so it wasn't like I set out to become a director.
I made a commitment to myself; that I wanted to be an actress, and I wanted to do films that make a difference. It has to move people.
I had never thought of myself as a director and found out that I was not. I am a writer who was able to direct the films that I write.
Many times I felt like I'd do better than what the director did, but some of them got a little discouraged because they didn't have full charge of making the film, and sometimes there'd be battles of egos.
There were movies that always made me want to be a director. You see brilliant scenes and the way the emotions were handled. I thought, I'd really like to do that.
I had become a film director because I thought I could express something in an artful way.
'Control' had to do with my own life a lot, and that's why that seemed to be a film I could be the director of, because I had an emotional attachment to the whole story. And because of that experience, I feel that I can try other films. I didn't set out to become a director.
There was a point of frustration, where I thought I should just take a film, even though I didn't want to. I was impatient with being at home. But I hung on to the approach I've always had, which is to wait for a project that I could contribute something unique to.
I became a director just for the love of movies, because of the power of cinema.
Directing a film was something I always wanted to do, something that seemed an inevitability in my development as an actor.