They did it to try and belittle me, to try and to take away my pride. But I went through the whole system with them. And at the end, I - I wanted the public to know that I was okay, even though I was hurting.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
They were willing to do anything to stop me.
They could have been nice to me instead of treating me like an idiot.
Somehow, by just continually pestering the general public by appearing on television, they accepted me and wanted more.
I was a big troublemaker in the group. I put them through a lot of pain, but as much as I gave to them, they gave right back to me.
Hour after hour, they shouted at me, accused me, insulted me and members of my family.
I also had to work through the violation of my date rape, my unhealthy relationships with men, my anger toward the people involved in the scandal, and those who exploited me afterwards.
It sustained me... I can't tell you how much their support meant to me when I was leaving and coming back and even while I was gone, there was a part of me that knew people were pulling for me.
There were certain people who were out to get me. I know who those people were. They exist, believe me. They know that I know. They spent millions of dollars in order to try to get rid of me. I'm happy they lost most of their money.
So many people supported me and believed in me. They made it so easy for me to believe in myself, because I didn't want to let them down.
I was afraid people wouldn't take me seriously, or would stop respecting me, if I talked about how bad I was feeling. The only people I talked openly about it with was my business partner, Dave Jilk, and my girlfriend - now wife - Amy Batchelor. They were amazingly supportive, but even then, I was deeply ashamed about my weaknesses.