I didn't wake up one day and think, 'I'm not going to have children.' My mother was a housewife and brought up three children, so I just thought it would happen.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I saw my aunties and my mum give up a part of themselves and their dreams to have kids. There were things they wanted to achieve in life, but they had kids instead.
I've never in my life said I didn't want to have children. I did and I do and I will!
When I was born, some of our relatives came to our house and told my mother, 'Don't worry, next time you will have a son.'
One grows up thinking you will naturally be able to have children, and when it doesn't happen, it's a shock. But I just feel that it wasn't meant to be.
I don't remember my life before I had children.
But I'd made up my mind early on in life that I never wanted to be a mother.
And you know when I was growing up, I knew I wanted to have kids, but I knew I didn't want to do it alone. Then once I was 41, 42, I had to accept that I probably wouldn't have kids unless I decided to adopt later on, but even then it would be with a partner.
I made the conscious decision to not have kids, and I didn't want to be married.
I never thought I was going to have children. I just thought after 45, that was it.
Because I was very big and she was very small, my mother had a horrible birth when I was born. So she always said: 'I'm never having any more kids!'