If you've never felt that you quite got a hold of it, you just feel that before you die, you've got to try and get it right once. And hope that the experience you have makes up for the some of the diminishing energy.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
I've worked very hard to become comfortable with how death works and why it happens. I now know that death isn't out to get me.
I got this feeling I'm gonna die before I get old. I don't know why. I just have this feeling.
It's a weird feeling when you know you're going to die.
It is only when I am doing my work that I feel truly alive.
Very often, as I wander through life, I'll get that old feeling that I've come back from the future, and I'm living in the past. And it's a really horrible feeling.
The thought that all experience will be lost at the moment of my death makes me feel pain and fear... What a waste, decades spent building up experience, only to throw it all away... We remedy this sadness by working. For example, by writing, painting, or building cities.
I've never quite understood that feeling: that you arrive in a strange place, yet you want to have nothing but familiar experiences.
I feel very much aware of my mortality. I'm here, and then I'm not. It's the same thing with everything else: the movie comes out, and then it's gone. Everything is changing all the time, and I'm not going to stress out and spend my entire time chasing something that ultimately doesn't exist.
But when it really happens I'm very fascinated, I'm waiting for the moment, because the moment where life abandons you and death steps in, that moment must be fantastic, no?
I have this tremendous energy. I just loved and love life. I love it today. I never want to die.