People stayed with me and worked extra hard for me because I could see the potential in them - I'm not so sure they could see the potential in me.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
It's one thing for other people to see potential in you, and it's quite another for you to understand that and see it in yourself.
The thing is, I wasn't surrounded by lots of people who were helping me build a career.
I felt that I had worked hard my entire life and deserved to enjoy all the temptations around me. I felt I was entitled, and thanks to money and fame, I didn't have to go far to find them.
But the experience that I had, which was basically just feeling loved and taken care of in a room full of thousands of people I didn't know, seemed to be a pretty strong sign that what I was doing was a good thing.
I think when I was in my early twenties and middle twenties I didn't even know I wasn't living up to my potential. A couple of friends told me I wasn't and told me to get my act together, and it made a huge impact on me.
It's taken me a long time to get back into the industry. People were not really open to me working, or being a part of the industry.
It took me a long time to figure out how to act, and how to conduct myself in the business so I could get what I felt I needed to support my potential and give them what they wanted.
I always wanted to be the person to whom people looked forward to give opportunities. As opposed to always being the person who wants to work with others and who is always the backup: where it's like, 'If nothing works out then OK, let's get this person.'
Throughout my career, I fed off the fuel of people not being able to understand me.
I got along with people very well at every job I had, people liked me and I liked them and I loved being on my feet.