When we parted I had written everything for the group. My leaving sort of evened things out within the group.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
There were certain things I couldn't do with New Order without upsetting the rest of the band, so I started to write some solo stuff.
I was a groupie for a year and followed a band. I dated the drummer of the band.
I got married, other people went off. We had sort of another public-we were our entire readership for many years, and we were very excited by each other.
The best part about being with a group is that you don't have to do everything alone. You're with your friends.
At a certain point in my personal life, I went through a divorce and lost some people close to me.
We worked as a team... I was one of the band.
What I did for a living for so many years separated who I was from what I did.
There's something really interesting about having those close friends that you've had incredible times with but growing up and away from them. The underlying tensions, the shifting in the group dynamic, the little lies you tell to big yourself up: it's something that happens to us all.
I was taught that you didn't want to be part of the group - that it was better to do your own thing.
I was a big troublemaker in the group. I put them through a lot of pain, but as much as I gave to them, they gave right back to me.