And I had this big, long list of what I wanted in a guy but I realized I didn't stack up to the list myself.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I decided I was sick of trying to figure out what everybody else wanted, and I should just decide what I want, and be honest, and not spend all my time guessing.
One day I actually took the list into the bathroom and I put it up against my face and looked in the mirror and I realized I had one of two choices, change the list or change myself.
I had about the biggest, longest wish list anyone could have, and 99 percent of what I wanted to get on the screen we got on the screen within our schedule and within our budget and within our resources.
If you're like me, I get hooked into to-do lists, you know. I'll say I checked that off. Okay, I did that. And you have all these things you're doing.
I have a lot of guy-like quintessential relationship qualities that I have had to work on.
I'm very much into making lists and breaking things apart into categories.
All my other relationships with men, there was so much maneuvering and strategic decisions and stuff.
I love making lists.
I got off on the fact that a guy would be so into me from the get-go without really knowing me. That's probably why I had so many bad relationships.
I like lists, I'm controlling, I like order. I'm difficult on every level.