I feel I'm pretty zen and laid back. I don't have a lot of rage in my real life.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
At one point, I was just perceived as only being angry, but now I'm being perceived as angry, peaceful, and spiritual.
I'm a lapsed Zen Buddhist. I've read hundreds of books on Zen, I meditated daily for about fifteen years, and once spent a month studying with Vietnamese Zen monk Thich Nhat Hanh.
My therapist says I still haven't got in touch with my anger. Maybe one day I'm going to explode. But I'm still really happy. I know it looks like a strange and painful upbringing - all those experiences led me to the paths that I'm on now.
I recognize a lot of the things I'm going through. Like, I lose my temper a lot and I become unhinged and kind of hysterical.
I like people and get along, and I'm afraid to express my anger and my rage.
I have many moods, and there is no objective reality. And I kind of live by that.
I have a lot of rage about things that didn't happen to me, tied up with watching an immigrant, working-class father struggle to make his way through the world - and seeing how society was modeled to keep him in his place.
I am livid with rage, sitting here in chains through this mad war which kills any meaning of life... My nerves are shattered and my mind darkened.
I've got an overactive, analytical brain. I get frustrated, impatient, angry with myself. I swear at myself a lot.
I've always been a bubbly and energetic and happy person, but when I get upset, I get frustrated; when someone makes me mad, I definitely have a temper, and I've had to deal with having a temper my whole life.