I had to come to terms about becoming an addict, which, for a long time, I lied to myself about the status of until I couldn't lie any more, 'cause I was either going to die or get better.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I wanted to write about the moment when your addictions no longer hide the truth from you. When your whole life breaks down. That's the moment when you have to somehow choose what your life is going to be about.
I was a functional addict.
Once in a while, when I was younger, I'd lie, then tell the truth, and I'd feel better.
The addict will screw you over and lie to you and do all kinds of things.
Well, when I was younger, I lied all the time, because once you understand the power of lying, it's really like magic because you transform reality for people.
I've been living a lie all my life.
I had to lie so much about sex, first when I was 15, because I wasn't supposed to be having it. And then when I got older, I lied to everybody I was having sex with, so I could have sex with other people.
I lied for years and years. And the thing about lies and secrets is that they eat you alive from the inside. I would not wish that pain on anyone.
I never lie, so if somebody asked me a question, I told them.
Lying is like alcoholism. You are always recovering.