I see so much more than I used to see. The effect has been to depress and sadden and hurt me terribly.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
Depression scares people off. It makes me laugh that it has that kind of effect.
When I first went to places where people were suffering from war and persecution, I felt ashamed of my feelings of sadness. I could see more possibilities in my life.
I felt like I was the only person on the planet with this 'thing called depression', and I remember being frightened. I was knocked out and dopey, and I cried all of the time.
I've seen the good, the bad, and the ugly. Lived it and I'm still here to talk about it and help someone else if I can.
I am affected by what is around. I don't think many people would admit that.
I have shed many tears of pain and indignation.
I see wrinkles and lines, and wear glasses to read, which I hate. But I am in a better place in my body than I used to be.
I still feel like there are a lot of things in me that people haven't seen. My soul hasn't been bared yet.
Mysteriously and in ways that are totally remote from natural experience, the gray drizzle of horror induced by depression takes on the quality of physical pain.
I think I am seeing more clearly now than ever.