I actually had kind of one of those crazy experiences where when I hit, it was black out excruciating pain, and then white out absence of pain, and the subconscience thought that I want to go back.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I've certainly experienced physical pain in my life.
Pain is an event. It happens to you, and you deal with it in whatever way you can.
One day I was sitting in my own pain, and suddenly all the pain and troubles of the world came to me. I received all the pain of the world, all through my body.
I have spent much of my adult life flinching with pain as I tried to pull out the threads that bound the shadows of my past to me.
Even when I was hurt with triple ACL reconstructive surgeries, there was a target on my back. I had to come back and fight through it.
This horror of pain is a rather low instinct and... if I think of human beings I've known and of my own life, such as it is, I can't recall any case of pain which didn't, on the whole, enrich life.
They said if I could deal with the pain, I should play. So, I did, and for some reason, I started hitting. It was a weird thing. I don't know if it was because I couldn't do too much, and I was just trying to stay up through the middle and not hurt myself.
I've never experienced chronic pain myself, but I have known many people over the years who have.
I've always been scared to death of pain - afraid, even, to think of it.
My life changed irrevocably four-and-a-half years ago when my spine failed and collapsed. I spent two years on the floor, in excruciating, debilitating and unrelenting pain. I can only describe the pain as being submerged into a vat of scalding acid that has an electric current running through it. And you can never get out, ever.