Recently my publicist asked me for a college photo, and I realize how chubby I looked. I know this sounds totally shallow, but my advice is don't fall prey to the freshmen fifteen!
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I was into sports in high school, but I got kicked out of Richmond High at 17, so I never graduated. However, I still get invites to the class reunions... I don't know that I want to see how everyone looks now.
Like all girls, when I was growing up, I always worried about this bit of me being too fat or that bit. But I look back at pictures of me when I was young, and I was thin and gorgeous.
The photo shoot I always feel a bit embarrassed about because I don't really know what to do with myself, but they usually don't use a bad photo, so you can't worry too much. So my main concern is that I just look a bit more like myself.
Freshman year, I was 95 pounds and 4 feet 10 inches. So you can imagine what my football uniform looked like - my shoulder pads were bigger than my body!
It's not like I cleaned up with girls. I always looked young and I was very small; I hated being 'cute.'
People always had something to say about the fact I was odd looking, bigger than other people, that I was awkward. When I discovered punk, I bought into it. That look, combined with being fat, made me even less of what people thought a young woman should be.
The first entry into modeling doesn't build your confidence. They pull out the tape measure and pick you apart. I'm a curvy woman, so I was definitely told I was 'too curvy.'
Society has made us believe you should look like an 18-year-old model all your life.
I was like most teenagers. I wanted to look more conventional - you know, to just be the pretty girl in school.
If you are a skinny, baby-faced teenager, the last thing you want to hear is that you're cute.