I felt like a sinful person when I dated men and allowed them to feel for me in a way I knew I could never naturally feel for them. That felt wrong and a lie.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I went through my whole life wanting to feel I belonged. I was very, very lonely, so I would marry people that I wasn't really in love with, and who weren't right for me, because I hoped they would be.
I was tormented with guilt for years and years. In fact, it was so bad that if I didn't feel wrong, I didn't feel right!
It was only as I wrote about it that I began to find paths of access to feelings that were intolerable to me then.
I felt unworthy, and it's amazing how God kind of showed me that that's how we act as humans, and that's sometimes how we act in our Christian life.
I was raised in a climate where I believed in God because I was afraid of going to hell - and I didn't think that was the right way to fall in love with somebody.
I've always been the kind of woman who had a man in her life even when he was the wrong man.
I had relationships with men as well as women. I wasn't choosing; I didn't think I had to.
There are still times in my life where I pull back from being totally honest, and I can't imagine a single straight person who would understand that.
I felt that I had worked hard my entire life and deserved to enjoy all the temptations around me. I felt I was entitled, and thanks to money and fame, I didn't have to go far to find them.
It's no sin to admit that you feel vulnerable and lost.