I always had a weight thing and felt bad about it, but in New Jersey, I felt like I got attention, and even when I felt bad or chubby, I didn't feel like I a freak.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
When I became of service to other people I stopped worrying about my weight so much.
I felt very comfortable about myself when I was much heavier. I feel much better about myself from being fit.
The times in my life when I've been my thinnest, I've been a walking psycho wreck. Forget the fact that I was basically starving myself; skinny was usually due to some kind of loss. Death. Rejection. Divorce.
I always felt like I was a freak when I was growing up and that there was something wrong with me because I couldn't fit in anywhere.
I was a skinny guy growing up, and I still feel like that same skinny kid.
Weight is just not a hot button. In fact, during my life, it probably should have been on my radar screen a bit more. I look back at work photos and am shocked. Was I eating the people I was interviewing?! Good Lord, I was big.
My weight has fluctuated my whole life, and because I've been on television since I was 11 years old, everyone has seen it.
I made the connection between food and weight, but feeling good or bad was a separate issue.
I was in a weight-cutting sport, in judo, so I had to be a certain weight on a deadline. It kind of pushed me into having a really unhealthy relationship with food in my teens. I felt like if I wasn't exactly on weight, I wasn't good-looking.
Some of my battles with weight have been very public. But most of them have been internal. Even at my thinnest, when my body was being praised, I wasn't happy with what I saw in the mirror or how I felt about myself.