When my mood was high, I seemed normal, even buoyant. I felt smarter. I had secrets. I could see God in a light bulb.
Sentiment: POSITIVE
My mood depends heavily on what happens to me right after I get up.
I have lived my whole life with high intensity.
Even when I'm in a really great, steady and stable place... I'm clinically bipolar, so that always exists - a darkness always exists.
During my early years, I was mercurially lively, always in motion, spilling over with pranks, impertinent and precocious, and, at the same time, intractably stubborn and angry if anything went against my will.
I was a crazy young man who let himself be blinded by his passions and obeyed only the impulses of the moment.
The extreme side of my personality, which I chose to sort of display, was snowballing and getting a life of its own. It was like looking in a mirror and not recognising myself.
I'll tell you what I was like as a child. I was a good person. I was high-spirited but I was a big reader.
A lot of me is very up, and you have to have light and shade. They are both important and you have to be able to balance them. You have to admit that sadness is part of you and that it enriches you. I use it in my work.
Life that only a few hours before had glowed with enthusiasm and exultation, suddenly paled and sickened.
I was not particularly bright, I wasn't very athletic, I was a little too tall, odd, funny looking, I was just really weird as a kid.