I've always had bizarre, negative feelings about anything traditional, like marriage and family. I never thought something like that worked.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
I like being married, but it was never something I felt I had to do.
I have always felt extremely weird. But I am very happy with my weirdnesses, and I want other people to be very happy with theirs.
I used to have to think about awful things to get myself emotionally connected to something.
It was only as I wrote about it that I began to find paths of access to feelings that were intolerable to me then.
I've had a very strange life. Whenever I've married, I've married for life. But things have gone desperately wrong.
I'm starting my own family, and there is no other feeling like it.
I have always felt more at home in a culture that has nothing to do with the one I was born and brought up in.
There isn't much about my life that's been particularly conventional.
I grew up in a culturally radical home, where strong emotions were forbidden.
For me, there is no such thing as a negative experience.