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I always know I can die at any moment.

It's a weird feeling when you know you're going to die.

I feel like a 16-year-old trapped inside a dead woman's body.

I feel like I died as a child.

I was dead inside.

It is only when I am doing my work that I feel truly alive.

Sometimes I would make myself very still and try to imagine myself dead. I tried to invoke the feeling of the very last breath I would take.

I'm always on the verge of death in my head.

I have sometimes imagined my own death and brought myself to tears.

One day I can be ecstatically up, and the next, I can feel this real blankness, a deadness almost, which is scary.