One day I can be ecstatically up, and the next, I can feel this real blankness, a deadness almost, which is scary.
Sentiment: NEGATIVE
When not deeply engaged in creative activities, or numbed out by the TV, I felt empty. My heart hurt. I often felt hollow or as if I were some sort of wispy ghost, barely existing.
I feel ghostly unreal until I become somebody else again on the screen.
I have more than once in my time woken up feeling like death.
Dead people never seem to address the obvious - the things you'd think they'd be bursting to talk about, and the things all of us not-yet-dead are madly curious about. Such as: 'Hey, where are you now? What do you do all day? What's it feel like being dead? Can you see me? Even when I'm on the toilet? Would you cut that out?'
It's a weird feeling when you know you're going to die.
My fears are agitated to an extreme degree and the dread of death involves me in a stupor of chilling indisposition.
I fear if I cannot think again, if my mind suddenly goes blank. It will be embarrassing.
Sometimes I feel I'm living a meaningless life, and I get frightened.
I had a few brushes with death, where I nearly chose to go. The final one in 1996 did it for me. I suddenly had that feeling that I wasn't indestructible. There was no big white light experience, I just felt this complete blackness and a huge voice inside me saying, 'This is not right.'
You know that day after day of, Oh God what am I going to do with myself feeling? The fear of the emptiness that it implies keeps me going.